Dark mornings

The morning are the most intense the memories rush to my pillow,
You face gleaming looking at me my lips lost in searching yours,
It's all but silence now and empty walls with echoing winds,
My eyes fill up with all the sorrow in the world lit up on fire,
The thought of you being with someone else burns my soul,
The morbidity of my emotions cries out like a cursed wolf,
I am helpless and nothing pacifies the horrors of my thoughts,
Sometimes I wonder what were my sins for I am being punished without you,
Each second feels like a sharp blade has been twisted and turned,
It carries with it the pain and anguish the lilies that have gone black,
There is no hope there is no light the brightest days seem night,
Laying here in your bed without you is a punishment bigger than my lonely soul,
I wish I could turn time and be given another chance,
I would do everything in my power for you to be with me,
I hear your love but the world has kept your away from me,
The others that be have crumbled my heart and nothing remains,
Like a limbless lifeless thing I walk this world untouched unfelt,
The tears that come do not take away the hurt audiences of loss.