Empty but still hurting

It is day 3, I woke up early today,
I could hear you saying you have to go now, I was day dreaming about you as I pushed your thoughts out of my mind,
I had to wake up to the reality that you are not there,
But as I move about on my things all I think about is you,
What you would say what you would do even though I don't want to think about it,
I had thought it would become easier, someone said distance and time dries the tears and makes it easier but I don't feel same,
With increasing distance and increasing time my yearning for you increases,
I am feeling hollow and emptier and it still hurts, it never stops hurting,
I feel like I'm falling deeper into the ocean as your voice screaming my name becomes muffled and I keep drowning lower and lower,
I want to drown and fall to the deep down earth and rest where no one calls me or disturbs me,
As I blink for the sunlight that is a distant tunnel,
I feel my body numbing and yet my heart still aches same,
I feel I'm falling I'm falling down,
Getting lost into my darkness,
And yet a flower still grows floating on the ocean surface,
It is my love for you to tell you where I am,
It blooms and shines every day away from all the sorrows of my soul