Knocking ahead and stumbling

The noise is deafening so many screams echo in my ears,
The shout has replaced the silence,
People are chopped as their memories fade away,
Raw emotions are up in smoke leaving behind nothing to sustain,
A state of wild has appeared in this civilized economy,
A giant hunger for something else something extraordinary,
Everyone runs and paces forward trying to leave the other behind,
There is no end to the track and no mile that ends,
Its a vast stretch which has no fulfillment,
Fatigued and tattered by these expectations,
I wake up in surprise of my own devotion,
Thousand eyes watch me thousand hearts desire me,
They desire what is mine they desire what would be mine,
I am pushed to a mirror to face myself everyday,
The ones who push me have walls in front of their faces,
They ignore the truth and want you to fall for a lie,
Each individual is lost in his own reality,
Each feels they are superior and farther ahead than the other,
I sit and take a deep breathe,
From where I stand it all seems like a huge circus,
All kinds of rides are being used by the ELDERS,
Their eyes are all tied up with a cloth binding their vision,
But they look happy lost in their reality of this world,
Some are lost in their own fight to be better,
Trying to overcome what they lost,
Some are lost in their path of being someone,
Trying to overcome their self,
Some are lost in their urge to be famous,
Trying to be higher than they are,
while some like me are still looking forward,
walking to an unknown feast.